I’m always running, running from what? I’m unsure because if I look back it takes me back to the past & we are all here to move on with our lives, so why look back? It seems to me that when days pass by we are always avoiding a few things, things we should express to ones we trust, but hard to because you’ve learned to keep it inside for so long that you even forgot how to communicate anymore, it demolishes you, having you thinking dark thoughts but so numb to it because you forgot what feelings are anymore, what are emotions even? Why do we have these things? Where is the turn off button? So I run away, running from what? Feelings. & then they say days are gonna get better but when is the day gonna come because I’ve been waiting for that day for so long that I can’t even taste the satisfaction of that welcoming day. Then we blame it on this world we live in. What is wrong with the world today? Why are we all so messed up? I don’t understand how so
much is wrong right now. I don’t understand how there is so much pain. But don’t mind me, it’s safer when I don’t look back to anything, so I keep on running..body shuts down. Numb.
Every time I hear a woman say “that’s why I don’t mess with females or I only have guy friends” I roll my eyes. Why? Because in most cases they’re just the type of women who cause drama amongst other women anyway. A whole gender can’t be against you, maybe you need to check yourself. The type of women who say all that are usually the most bitchiest, screwface don’t nobody want them as a friend kinda person anyway. Yes some women can be catty and jealous I know this. I just don’t have Miss Catty or Miss Jealous as my friends, true friends are down for you whatever sex. Maybe you just associate with no good females? I haven’t been in a situation with ‘bitchiness’ in years. Because I only choose to associate with people who I actually like. Now listen carefully you can still have issues with a female friend I have -Yes you may fall out but not simply because she’s a woman.